I fonally managed to get to see a GP today.
I booked an appointment 2 weeks ago to sort out my anti-depressents, and see whats happening inside my head.
Except i got there this morning, and the appointment wasnt booked. I checked to see if i had the day wrong, and i didnt have any appointments booked in.
At which point i broke down in tears. I had been building upto this point for weeks and was hoping to get things sorted a bit more.
They booked me in for an emergency appointment this afternoon, and hopefully now, in a few weeks, my mind will be more stable and i can start to find the small things enjoyable again.
Depression sucks. It sucks the life ut of you, sucks enjoyment from everything, and makes the world grey.
I am waiting for some rainbows.