Today has been hard.
The blackness has been there all day. cant shift it.
Sobbed earlier at the tangle of emotions this has left me in.
I WILL get better. I have to. I am an emotional wreak, and its not good for the children.
I love my family so much, and hate how much this must be hurting them. i am distant, sobbing and angry.
Hopefully they wont hate me in years to come for how I am now in this short period of time.